from a friend whose hands know land- how to gather what grows between stones,
how to dry leaves with care, how to boil water without hurry. He said: Add the sage during the boil. Add sugar. Add more sugar, if the day’s been cruel. And wait. Let it steep. Let it speak.
Then came warmth- like sitting beside someone who doesn’t ask for words,
only presence. This is how we come back to each other: in soil under fingernails, in meals shared, in sitting by the fire long enough to hear what the land is still holding.
Teshuvah is not just return- it is repair.
It is planting again where we once uprooted. It is asking the sage what it remembers, and listening. When we drink it together, we remember: we were never meant to heal alone.
Stephanie Gray (they/them) is a scholar, grassroots organizer, and ritualist based on Quapaw, Osage, and Caddo land in Central Arkansas. They are the spiritual leader of Taste of Olam Haba, a pluralistic Jewish congregation in Little Rock.
Elul is a month for transition, reflection, and return to self, preparing for the High Holy Days in Tishrei/September. Each of these Etudes from Beth El members and wider Jewish community connects in some way to the Earth and to teshuvah — change, return, repentance — reminding us that we are in deep connection with all that surrounds us. Read more »
I love the last line. Healing alone is impossible.
September 15, 2025 at 7:14 pm